"Oh," she says bitterly, eyes still shut, "no, I think you'll agree that the jealousy itself is the stupid thing. I've let it last this long because I've been trying to convince myself out of it, because it is stupid. Selfish and childish and pointless, because it isn't about anything she has that I want."

It's easier to bear when it comes from yourself, isn't it? murmurs Helena in her memory. Because you would rather call how you feel idiotic ... than risk an answer that would hurt you.

Oh but watch, mocks her own voice, I can do both at once.

"It started because you left with her."