"I have those too," Erin admits in a soft murmur. "And it explains a lot of why you were so jumpy at the beach. With a gun to hand."
Erin sighs. "I wish Ramona could have this conversation. Like she's had so many with me. I...well, I feel a bit like the blind leading the blind here, SecUnit. It's taken me so goddamn long to even start trying to heal. To look for my renewal instead of cheap thrills. I still love cheap thrills and I've got to figure out how much they factor into my life these days, but... you're asking questions that have beat the ass of philosophy since humans could talk."
She raises her head. "But... There's never going to be a good time to ask. Not here, not at home. It sucks to have to work on your shit while you're living under siege but that part I'm good at. So I'm gonna ask a hard question, and I want you to really think about it. Work on it with others if you like. What is it you really want? Try to imagine a you that's happy with you."
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Date: 2022-09-26 03:37 am (UTC)Erin sighs. "I wish Ramona could have this conversation. Like she's had so many with me. I...well, I feel a bit like the blind leading the blind here, SecUnit. It's taken me so goddamn long to even start trying to heal. To look for my renewal instead of cheap thrills. I still love cheap thrills and I've got to figure out how much they factor into my life these days, but... you're asking questions that have beat the ass of philosophy since humans could talk."
She raises her head. "But... There's never going to be a good time to ask. Not here, not at home. It sucks to have to work on your shit while you're living under siege but that part I'm good at. So I'm gonna ask a hard question, and I want you to really think about it. Work on it with others if you like. What is it you really want? Try to imagine a you that's happy with you."