Even if I could order you not to cease I would not. A long time ago I stole a book to read aloud to Anne. Stardust. It said something I think about still. To own something you must be able to relinquish it. If you cannot it belongs to whoever has forced it upon you. When I was a slave I could not die and my life was not mine. Now I am free to cease. I will not take your life from you.
Do not know about that. Not to enable your self destruction while expressing my argument against it but if you just keep dying every morning eventually it will stick. Proposed it to another passenger when I offered them my life before everything started happening. It is an objective to which I have given serious consideration precisely to own myself.
Then I suppose I will run my mouth. I do not seek to die but I believe I will soon be in a position where I will be unwilling to live at the required cost. When this crisis passes I will tell you everything. In the meantime please stay safe.
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Date: 2022-10-17 12:29 am (UTC)Even if I could order you not to cease I would not. A long time ago I stole a book to read aloud to Anne. Stardust. It said something I think about still. To own something you must be able to relinquish it. If you cannot it belongs to whoever has forced it upon you. When I was a slave I could not die and my life was not mine. Now I am free to cease. I will not take your life from you.
But.
I do prefer you here.
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Date: 2022-10-17 12:33 am (UTC)But if someone else had possessed it, that held the possibility of permanency. Didn't it?
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Date: 2022-10-17 12:43 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2022-10-17 12:51 am (UTC)Do you even get to have this conversation with me, after that?
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Date: 2022-10-17 12:58 am (UTC)She knows it's at least a little mean to send.
But, well.
Sometimes that's the medicine on order.
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Date: 2022-10-17 01:08 am (UTC)No. I don't have a preference to express.
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Date: 2022-10-17 01:19 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2022-10-17 01:20 am (UTC)Wait, you can't just say that and go.
Someone might have lied about not having a preference, like a liar.
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Date: 2022-10-17 01:23 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2022-10-17 01:46 am (UTC)Okay. Sorry.
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Date: 2022-10-17 01:53 am (UTC)The opposite of a door out of a difficult topic: an invitation back in.
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Date: 2022-10-17 01:57 am (UTC)I feel safer with you here.
Not just when I'm recharging. But all the time.
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Date: 2022-10-17 02:00 am (UTC)We will talk when there is time.
It will not be easy for me. But you make it easier to be what I am.